THE LOVE I MUST HATE

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I am only attracted to girls. I realised that since the day I began to feel my sexual organs. But no one must know about it, not when I live in a religious girls' high school. It is considered unholy to love a fellow girl. It is against the school rules, and a rumour about it will result in the expulsion of the involved students. I wouldn't want to be expelled. I fear the humiliation it would bring and the disappointment it might cause my parents. My parents sent me to this religious school for a sort of cleansing from my abominable choice of sexuality. Although they failed to understand I didn't choose to like girls, I do not want to be expelled back to them or see them hurt more than they are hurting. So, I dwelled in secret, surviving the cohabitation of other girls until Uriel came along. I couldn't resist Uriel's sweet sculpted face, endowed body figure, and perfect curvy lips. I couldn't withstand her charm. So, I decided to risk everything and have that 'unholy' relationship with her. For Uriel, I could face the world and fight, but I didn't consider whether Uriel would want the same. After I kissed her and confessed my feelings, I saw maybe, just maybe, I should have remained in the closet and had my secret buried with me. Now she is back, years later...apologising and professing her undying love. Should I believe she reappeared to love me right? Should I embrace my unquenched feelings for her or take on the revenge I've always wanted?