Falling For Mr Mafia

The plan was simple. Surprise Enzo with dinner and stay over at his apartment for the night. I'd spent the last couple of hours picking out a nice dress. He always did say he loved when I wore dresses. However the sound that greeted me the moment I stepped foot into his apartment felt like a twisted joke. The scene that greeted me as I traced the sounds to his room was even worse.

"Am I your good girl, daddy?" 

"Mhm Yes. Such a Good girl," He growled out in an approving manner.

"Show daddy how well you can take him, mhm?" The sound of the bed creaking got louder as they let out a loud moan that echoed through the room.

The room was large and spacious , but in this moment it felt like the walls were closing in on me. It felt suffocating. Everything making it so hard to breathe. I stood across  the room, listening to the sounds coming out from their mouth. Watching Enzo, my boyfriend of one year, have s*x with another woman. It felt like I was standing across a stranger. They didn't even notice me standing there, frozen ,until my purse landed on the floor with a loud thud, shattering the s*x driven haze.

The sound startled them, and Enzo looked up, eyes wild and guilty for a split second before he quickly mask it with indifference. He quickly wore his pants as the lady, whoever she was, tried to use the sheets to cover up.

"Aurae, what are doing here?" His tone flat, and slightly irritated like I was a disturbance who had just interrupted his fun.

In a haze, I walked back to the sitting room, my heart pounding as Enzo rushed behind me.

We stood across each other in silence for what felt like hours before Enzo decided to speak.

"Let's end this, Aurae,".His tone final. Like a decision he'd thought of over and over again.

The weight of his words hit me. Taking the little air I had in my lungs. Each words echoing in my head. I couldn't help but relive the moment dad left us for his new family when I was 11 all over again. I couldn't stop the image of Mom crying for weeks in her room from floating into my head. I remember praying , hoping desperately for dad to come back home. But he never did. He never came back for mum and certainly not for Elyse and I.

Love was something I'd secretly longed for but openly despised. It was something I'd craved for just as much as I hated it—a twisted paradox. I wanted someone to look at me like their only world, but I feared if just as much knowing they'd end up leaving after getting close. Giving your heart to someone only for them to break it into pieces. Love, I'd learnt the hard way was a deadly weapon.

But it always wasn't like this. In fact, growing up, I'd been the biggest lover girl in history. But you couldn't really blame me. All the Disney movies and Taylor Swift songs didn't help much either. They painted love as something magical. But that illusion shattered the second I'd seen my mom crying over a man who barely cared.

"Why?" I'd managed to ask. My knuckle clenched on my thigh.

He shrugged, looking everywhere else but my eyes

"I don't think this would work." He pointed at the two of us. The callousness of the cold explanation cut deeply into my already shattered heart.

"So that's all you have to say?

Huh? That's it?" I asked my voice shaky, barely able to with hold the anger and humiliation rising at the back of my throat.

"I caught you having s*x with a wh*r*, Enzo , and this is all you have to say?"

Enzo sighed, finally meeting my gaze.

"What do you want me to say? Huh Aurae? You were always so busy that it felt like I was the only one trying in this relationship, yet I'm at fault for finding someone else who actually wants me around."

I clench  my teeth harder, already tasting blood but I was too angry to care.

"Look, Aurae, I don't think I'm the right guy for you. I'm sorry."

I stood there staring at him, barely able to swallow the words I do desperately wanted to scream. I'd seen this scene before, felt this heartbreak before.

These words. These excuses.  I'd heard them enough. Dad, my first boyfriend, Noah, and now Enzo. They were all the same.

I'd stood emotionlessly in  the room for a brief moment 

"Okay," I said monotonously, picking up my purse from the floor and leaving  without sparing him another glance.   Unable to see the look of indifference on his face. He didn't care. They never did. The truth was love was a game I'd played and lost many times. 

Outside the chill of the night air hit me hard on my face . I could hear the thud of my heart with each step I took towards the bus stop. I felt numb. Too numb to feel hurt. Too numb to cry. Too numb to notice the world around me and the people moving around me. Everything felt like a blur. A nightmare.

I'd vow there and then never to fall in love again. All men were scum anyway. Love was for dreamers and I was done dreaming. 

The bus pulled up, its headlight momentarily blinding me in the dark of the night.  I wiped my hands on my jeans and took a deep breathe before stepping into the bus, leaving behind not just my broken heart but a broken dream.

Aurae's Pov

"Yes oh my god!

Mhmm, yes, babe faster!" I stood frozen in front of Thea's door as the unmistakable sound of groans and her bed creaking creeps out of her paper thin bedroom walls. Wincing as her moans echoed through the apartment. What a great way to start my morning ,ugh!

"Oh come on, not again!" I muttered under my breathe , rolling my eyes.

Ignoring the soft giggles and sounds of stuff breaking , I hurriedly make my way through the kitchen doing my best to block out the sounds coming from Thea's room. Breakfast could wait till later. I quickly grab a bar of chocolate from the counter.

With a deep sigh, I shove the chocolate inside my purse as I make my way outside, in haste to hear anything other than groans and moans. God I'll kill Thea later.

The drive to the cafe was as quick as always. By the time I'd settled into the cafe my mood had already lifted.