The decade I loved you the most

Chapter One

　　It was snowing when he came out of the hospital, and the icy snowflakes caught in the cold wind and blew on He Zhishu's face, and it was only then that he belatedly realized that it seemed to be winter again.

　　The winter in Beijing is really cold. He Zhishu woodenly arranged his scarf casually, wringing in his hand a few pieces of laboratory tests that had been crumpled by him. His heart was even colder.

　　He stood under the stop sign and waited for the bus, his fingers were frozen white, he took out his cell phone and skillfully dialed the number, and then dialed again after no one answered and hung up automatically, over and over again. In the end, no one answered.

　　He Zhishu crumpled the checklists into a ball and left them in the trash.

　　More than half an hour later finally came to the bus, the car is rare less people, He Zhishu put his forehead against the glass window, dialed the phone again. This time someone answered.

　　"It's snowing today, it's winter." Fourteen years. He Zhishu's voice was calm and gentle, but she couldn't stop the tears from crawling down her face.

　　Jiang Wenxu made a silent gesture at his side, thinking that He Zhishu talking like a mute riddle all day was really annoying, "Is there something wrong? I'm working overtime."

　　"Are you coming back for dinner tonight? You haven't been home for a long time." He Zhishu rubbed the plain silver ring on her right ring finger over and over again, watching tears drip onto the back of her hand.

　　Jiang Wenxu felt that He Zhishu was strange today, it was intuitive, after all, they had been together for fourteen years, "What's wrong with you?"

　　He Zhishu didn't answer, just asked again very patiently, "Will you come back at night? You should eat dumplings on a snowy day, I'll wrap them for you."

　　"Really can't come back," Jiang Wenxu started to get a bit annoyed, He Zhishu's salty tone attitude made him fall out of his appetite, "Don't wrap it yourself, I'll ask Xiao Song to order one for you, I'm hanging up now, busy."

　　He Zhishu listened to the busy tone of the cell phone, his heart hurt too much, he was as stiff as if he had pressed the slow forward button and put the phone back into his pocket.

　　How could there be a company where even the boss was so busy that he didn't even have time to go home for a dinner?

　　Jiang Wenxu had someone outside, how could he not know?

　　Four years ago, Jiang Wenxu's heart was wild, sensitive and intelligent as He Zhishu and how could he not notice. Just He Zhishu has always turned a blind eye, he is not indifferent, not dare to say, but he is afraid that once picked out even the face of a little prosperity are gone. That is not the so-called love of teenage hormones overly impulsive, that is his more than ten years of payment and habit. Tolerance and how will not be able to do?

　　He Zhishu lied to himself, he can not smell Jiang Wenxu body stained belonging to the woman's perfume gas, can not see Jiang Wenxu suit shirt collar lipstick marks, can not recognize his favorite man not home lame excuse.

　　They used to love each other so much, why now become this appearance? They obviously, even the first few years of hard time to fight through ah.

　　Arrived at the station, He Zhishu got out of the car, or the face of the gentle and unassuming man. His eyes are just a little red and his face is too white.

　　He did not buy food, by now He Zhishu has little appetite. He had tried so hard to beg Jiang Wenxu to come home today...because He Zhishu really didn't know if he would be able to have dumplings with Jiang Wenxu on the first snowy night of next year.

　　Assistant Song came very quickly, the man in the suit seemed to have just come out from the company, handing over the food box and respectfully shouting Mr. He.

　　He Zhishu waved his hand in embarrassment, "In the future, just take care of things in the company, don't be squeezed by Jiang Wenxu every day to do these errands."

　　Assistant Song laughed: "Assistant is where there is work to do, hard some can't help but pay high ah", he and He Zhishu casually chat a few sentences and left.

　　He Zhishu sat on the round table after Assistant Song left, guarding a small box of dumplings and did not move.

　　The first thirteen years this table was surrounded by two people. In the first ten years, the table was filled with flour and fillings, and Jiang Wenxu accompanied him to wrap them together, childishly wrapping in a lot of candy and coins, always complaining that the lucky ones were all taken by He Zhishu, and that he couldn't grab them if he wrapped them in smaller quantities.

　　He Zhishu took it for granted and wiped the frequent nosebleeds with a tissue. He Zhishu finally understood why he had such a disease, his blessings have long been given to Jiang Wenxu? He silently gave Jiang Wenxu all the dumplings with blessings. So he doesn't have any luck at all.

　　He only ate four dumplings from that box. Four is enough for the four seasons. He Zhishu thought in a trance, he had some low fever, the low pressure of emotions made him very tired, sleep will be fine, the heartache will be worn out in a long sleep, broken into more raging loneliness.

Chapter Two

　　He Zhishu slept uneasily; he woke up early in the morning and skillfully swallowed a handful of flowery pills over the overnight cool white water. The person in the bathroom mirror was pale, listless, and bleary-eyed.

　　He Zhishu pounced on his face with cold water and rummaged through the bottom of the heavy down jacket wrapped around his body.

　　When he left the house, his cell phone rang, and He Zhishu's hopes were once again dashed, but it was the doctor who advised him to get treatment as soon as possible. He Zhishu responded with his customary gentle smile, "Thank you, I'll think about it."

　　It was still too early, less than eight o'clock, and the snow that had fallen all night had stopped at some point. He Zhishu walked for half an hour before finding the wonton stall that she hadn't been to in a while.

　　The owner was about to close the stall, but once he saw He Zhishu, he greeted her with a smile, "It's been a long time since you