Forbidden Attraction

After the message I had just received from Andrés, I locked my phone, without answering that message, and I snuggled up with Amaia, I didn't want to know anything. Slowly, my eyes became heavier and heavier, until I fell asleep with Amaia.

I woke up because of some noises in my kitchen. When I realized, I was asleep on the couch. I got up and walked to the kitchen, I found Amaia making breakfast, making waffles. It's her specialty since I met her.

‘‘Good morning sleepyhead. ‘‘ I gave up

I stretch and let out a long sigh. I felt empty, I didn't understand why. I needed to find a hobby and I didn't know which one. Not having an appetite for breakfast, I sat on my couch while using my computer to look up inspiration on Google. My problem was more serious than I thought, having found hidden feelings for Andrés was killing me, but what was killing me more was knowing that he had come to me, and another person said no to him, it seems that it was all voluntary.

Suddenly, the fleeting idea of ​​adopting a dog occurred to me. Maybe it helped me get my head somewhere else. I don't know what's happening to me, but this pain seems like the breakup of a love relationship from several years ago.

I'm getting very overwhelmed, I need to go out. I went to get dressed, I think my best option is to go out for a run, to exercise. I put on my sports outfit, and I put on my sports shirts.

‘‘ Amaia! I'm leaving, you're at home okay, when you close. ‘‘

And without wanting to hear her answer, I left the house. I started running at full speed, without a fixed point. I didn't want to think about where I wanted to end up. I ran until I exhausted all the sadness I have in my body. I saw more people doing sports, I didn't even know that so many people liked to go out running alone. I saw several friends trying, but between the fits of laughter they had, they barely gathered the strength to start running.

I saw many people walking happily, and what filled me with nostalgia the most was seeing happy couples walking hand in hand. D*mn. I want to too.

When I arrived at a very beautiful park, the grass was super green, and there was a lake in front with several ducks. I got tired of the grass. I felt like the fresh air entered my lungs. I closed my eyes while trying to calm the adrenaline I had inside after all the running I had done.

Until, a voice took me out of my thoughts.

‘‘ Nat? ‘‘ That voice was very familiar, but I didn't remember who it was.

I opened my eyes to see who had just recognized me.

‘‘ Sh*t, Marcus? ‘‘ I sat down when I saw him standing in front of me.

He was quite sweaty, he looked exhausted, he was dressed in sportswear, he was wearing a tank top that showed off his muscles perfectly, d*mn, I had never realized how strong he was.

‘‘ Are you coming to exercise here too? ‘‘ I wonder.

‘‘ No way, all this was just a fit I had. ‘‘ I said between sighs.

She lets out a laugh and sits next to me.

‘‘Sorry, I'd give you two kisses, but I'm sweaty, I just finished my exercise routine, what brings you here? ‘‘

‘‘Well, I needed to clear my mind. ‘‘ I said scratching my head.

‘‘ Is everything okay? ‘‘

I was impressed, I really appreciated Marcus, and we had been friends for years, but I had never seen him from this perspective before, I didn't know he was such a healthy person, that he likes to exercise, he speaks so seriously, so respectfully. I've focused so much on my friendship with Andrés, that I hadn't noticed the other friends I have.

‘‘So’‘so, but hey, I go as I can, I went running because I felt like adopting a dog. ‘‘ I burst out laughing. ‘‘And I can't afford more expenses. ‘‘

He started laughing.

‘‘D*mn, but those kinds of expenses are always necessary, who wouldn't want the love of a dog?

‘‘ Do you like dogs? ‘‘

‘‘I have one, a Siberian husky. She's pregnant and she'll soon give me puppies. ‘‘

‘‘Come on.’‘ I said surprised.

‘‘ Are we going to have a coffee? ‘‘ He asked me while pointing to a coffee shop located in front of where we were.

‘‘Yeah, sure.’‘

He stood up and held out his hand to help me up.

We walked together to that coffee shop, while he told me what his dog was like and his funniest anecdotes he had with her. She definitely needs this, to interact with more people, to get to know more people better, I never thought I would be so comfortable with Marcus.

We spent hours talking, he told me many things about his childhood, the truth is he made me laugh a lot, sometimes my phone vibrated from time to time, but I was having a great time, I didn't want to attend to anyone.

I had never had such an exciting life, and that made me think that I needed to live more, and focus on more things, I even reconsidered the need to go to a psychologist, but I don't know if it was going to be too much.

‘‘Nat, I'm sorry, but I have to go now, I've lost track of time with you. ‘‘ I laughed.

‘‘Yeah yeah, sure, I have to go too. ‘‘ I laughed.

There was a somewhat awkward silence, I think we were both pretty happy with each other.

‘‘I'm really glad I spent time with you Nat. ‘‘ He smiles at me. He gets up and comes to give me a hug.

I open my arms to accept his hug.

‘‘Let's talk, okay?’‘

‘‘Yes.’‘

I watched him leave, and I saw him disappear in the crowd. I think I was having a problem, and maybe what could solve it was going to a psychologist. Either that, or I needed to talk to Amaia.

I take out my phone, and I see that I have hundreds of pending messages, Andrés the most, I felt sorry for him, but I didn't want him to talk to me about his perfect girlfriend right now, I wanted my best friend back, there was no need for him not to love me, d*mn I don't know what I'm talking about anymore. I looked for Amaia among my contacts and called her, she answered me right away.

‘‘ Where were you Nat? I've left you thousands of messages.

‘‘ I need to talk, are you still at my house? ‘‘ I asked.

‘‘ Yes, I'm still here, I want you to clean it up a bit, you had it full of sh*t eh. ‘‘

I laughed at what she had told me.

‘‘ Great, I'll be there soon, I won't be long.

I try to get home as soon as possible, I had several problems in my head that I didn't know how to solve. I ran to save time and take advantage of the fact that I had gone out to do sports, so I could kill time.

When I got home, there were hardly any lights on, when I went in, I saw Amaia sitting in my living room, in the dark with her phone, I turned on the light and she got scared.

‘‘What a scare Nat.’‘

‘‘ What are you doing in the dark? ‘‘

‘‘ Just in case someone came, so they would think that nobody was there. ‘‘

I sat next to her, and sighed deeply. I gathered enough strength to tell her what was happening to me.

‘‘Let's see, Amaia, I don't know what's happening to me. I'm jealous that Andrés has found a new girlfriend. I feel so anxious that it seems like I've been in a relationship for years and it seems like they've left me for someone else, when it was just a friendship. The pain I feel doesn't seem normal at all, and it pisses me off, because even reconsidering adopting a dog is something I don't like.

‘‘Nat, I think it's time for you to realize something. ‘‘

‘‘ What? ‘‘

‘‘Andrés, he's your first love, and even though you haven't tried anything romantic, I know that, deep down in your hearts, you have feelings for each other.

‘‘How can he be my first love? It was just a kiss...’‘

‘‘Yes, it was just a kiss. ‘‘ He took my hands. ‘‘But that kiss finally unlocked what you had stuck there inside your hearts, and it has finally made you realize that you are made for each other.

‘‘And what do I do now... he's with someone else, he doesn't love me, and I can't forget him, I want to be with him, but I don't want to tell him because I want to continue being his friend.

‘‘Keep the friendship with him, if it has to be, it will be, and if it has to happen, it will happen. ‘‘ She smiles at me.

‘‘F*ck Amaia...

‘‘Relax, try other guys in the meantime, do the same as him, if you're really destined, you'll reconnect like never before.

I stayed silent while I looked at my nails, remembering the wonderful afternoon I spent with Marcus.

‘‘Today, he spent the day with Marcus.

She is surprised by what I had just told her.

‘‘With Marcus? Our Marco? And how was he? ‘‘

‘‘Well, he's charming, behind that party’‘goer facet, there's a good and attentive man. ‘‘ I said smiling.

‘‘How about you try something with him? He's quite attractive, he doesn't reach Andrés' height, but I don't know... just to try...’‘

‘‘I'd have to think about it. ‘‘ My cheeks were slowly changing color, I could tell.

‘‘ Do you like Marcus? ‘‘She laughs

‘‘ No! I mean, yes, I really like Andrés, but after this afternoon... Marcus is great. ‘‘ I covered my face in shame at admitting this.

All this was new to me, I'd never had a boyfriend. I'd had s*x with some random guys, for entertainment, but if I can be honest, I haven't found any that make me enjoy as they say you supposedly enjoy s*x. Sometimes I play dumb, and say that I've enjoyed a lot so as not to make the other person feel bad, but well, things happen.

All this, the only one who knew all the details, was Andrés, he was the only one who, unfortunately, my s*x life was somewhat pathetic. For the others, my s*x life was fully satisfactory.

‘‘By the way, remember the vacation we're going to take next week. ‘‘ Amaia interrupts me from my thoughts.

It's true! The cabin that we had all rented to spend the weekend. We all agreed to rent a cabin in the middle of the forest, to take advantage of nature, and disconnect, Andrés and I, were going to share a room and everything, I didn't remember that vacation at all.

‘‘ Sh*t Amaia, I was supposed to share a room with Andrés.

‘‘ Well honey, try to improve your relationship with him, so that it becomes as good as possible.

Suddenly I see how she gets up and starts to pack her things.

‘‘ Are you leaving? ‘‘ I asked.

‘‘ Yes, I'll see you tomorrow if you want, but now I really have to go. ‘‘

She gives me a hug, and walks her to the door.

‘‘ If you need me, Nat, just call me. ‘‘

‘‘ Yeah, calm down, good night. ‘‘

I closed the door. My head had betrayed me again, I was only thinking about Andrés. It was 8 in the evening, it was getting dark. I went to the shower and then looked for something to eat. I decided to make myself a salad, I didn't feel like cooking anything at all.

Suddenly my door rang.

It must be Amaia, maybe she left something behind. I went to my door, and when I opened it, I found him. The person who had been tormenting my thoughts.

‘‘Andrés.’‘ I mentioned.

When we got to her house, you could tell she had just cleaned it. It smelled clean and had a slight vanilla scent. I loved her house, it was huge, of course, because she had enough money to buy the houses she wanted. It had incredible views of the beach in Los Angeles. My dream is to have my own house, facing the beach, as close as possible, I love going to the beach and relaxing. I put my things on her couch and tied my hair up.

‘‘ Do I have any of my clothes here? ‘‘ I said while fixing my hair.

‘‘ Yes, exactly a thong. ‘‘ she said laughing, while taking off her jacket.

‘‘ And that laugh? ‘‘

‘‘ It turns out that the last woman I brought here, found your thong, and thought I was a playboy, that I had a girlfriend and was being unfaithful, look, I'll do it for you. ‘‘ she started laughing out loud.

‘‘ F*ck, I'm so sorry. ‘‘ I started laughing.

‘‘ It doesn't matter, she wasn't even a woman worth owning. ‘‘He said, putting his voice deeper.

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