Marry Me, Mistress

Prologue

In a world full of lies, I lived in this world. Sometimes, I wish I had never lived in this world.

I'm only experiencing pain and sadness, it's tiring. I told myself that I would find a man who would love me completely and not cheat on me. I promised myself then that I would not be like my mother who became a fixture because I was the result of the sin they committed.

I was deprived of my complete family and even Mama who gave birth to me in this world did not want me.

I thought I couldn't be like him because I was different and educated. But the truth slapped me because what I was avoiding happening to me has happened. I didn't think I was a hooker either.

"You animal!" I shouted while pushing his chest.

My chest tightened when I found out. It's like I've been stabbed because of the pain. I was crying in front of him as I kept pushing him away from me.

His lips parted and he tried to stop me from pushing him. "Tori, Let me explain—"

"You made me a fixture!" I interrupted what he said while still crying.

I took a step back just as he was about to hold my hand. His expression softened at what I did. We are in a condo unit, where we always meet. Where we have many happy memories. I trusted him and believed his every word.

I agreed to keep our relationship a secret because he didn't want me to be harmed by his business enemies. I was too foolish to believe on his lies. He hid me because I was attached.

I put my palms on my face while my tears continued to fall. I do not accept that I am a fixture. I can't accept that my fate is the same.

"T-Tori." His eyes were red as he called my name.

"I..."

I violently removed my palm from my face and looked at him while crying.

"Y-You made me a fixture!" I said shakily as I pointed to myself. "I hate myself especially because.."

I can't say that word because of hatred. Steven shook his head at me and tried to come closer. His eyes are very tired and I think he lacks sleep. He took a quick step towards me so I didn't get away immediately and only then did I realize that his hand was behind me.

I struggled in his grip especially as he pulled my body closer to him. I pushed him hard and quickly turned away. My heart ached because of what I did. I could only hear my cry and his deep breathing in the whole room.

"Tori, I don't love her!" His deep voice echoed throughout the room.

To this day I still don't stop crying especially since he blocks me at the door, preventing me from leaving.

"Please hear me out!"

I shook my head while avoiding his caress on my cheek. I can't accept this relationship. Why now? Why did I find out now? Am I that stupid? Am I that crazy about him to not imagine what could possibly happen?

I tearfully looked up at him. I saw her tears flow as her eyes looked at me sadly. My chest got tighter.

"S-Steven, L-Let's end this."

A moment of silence enveloped us both when I said that. I saw his expression change. I swallowed and then looked away.

"Baby..."

My hair stood up and I gasped. Hearing this, the heart beat faster. He called me "baby", our endearment. If it used to be thrilling, now it's disgusting to hear.

I closed my eyes when he gently caressed my wet cheek. "Let's fix this, hmm? I'm sorry that I lied to you. I'll fix it. We were just married through papers. We didn't marry on church. I will fix this, hmm? I already filed an annulment—"

I pushed him away from me because of what I heard. I could clearly see the tension in his jaw because of what I did. My right palm flew automatically to his left cheek. His face tilted because of my slap. Tears just started to fall on me.

"Don't you realize that our relationship is wrong?" I shouted, pushing him away again. He didn't move from his position and just let me push him.

"You know that, eh.." My voice broke.

"You know what I don't want! You know very well! You know everything I don't want and want, Steven! You think I'll change my mind about what you're going to do?"

I pushed him again but stopped when he violently grabbed both of my arms and held them tightly. I struggled in his grip.

"Baby..."

"No!" I shouted. "You can't change my mind! I hate myself!"

"I love you..." he said softly and lifted my hand towards him and kissed it. "I love you..."

"You fooled me!" I insisted pulling my hand. "While we were together, you were married to someone else! Don't you have a conscience? You made a fool of me, Steven! I agreed to our secret relationship even though I didn't want to!"

He was stunned by what I said and loosened his hold on me. Maybe he realized I was right.

"Don't you even think about it?" I asked him. "While you're here with me, your wife might be waiting for you, Steven! So I don't want it anymore. I don't want it anymore! It's wrong!"

I hardly recognize my own voice. Steven didn't move from his position and just stared at me. As he stared at me, tears were falling from his eyes. I love him but I also think about myself, my well-being.

When he didn't speak, I gently pushed him and I was surprised when he almost fell because of my push. My heart ached especially when he bowed. I just bit my bottom lip and ran out of his condo.

People were staring at me as I ran towards the elevator in tears. To this day, my brain still can't process that he has a wife. How could he bear to hide that? I didn't know for a year. I was also a fool with him for a year. If only I hadn't seen it as I was running towards the elevator in tears.

To this day, my brain still cannot process that he is married. How could he bear to hide that? I didn't know for a year. I was also a fool with him for a year.

If I hadn't seen Steven's wife's message on her cell phone, I might not have known everything. Maybe we still continued the secret relationship until now which is a sin.

When I got out of the building, I hurriedly ran to the waiting area and quickly stopped the oncoming bus. When it stopped, I immediately went inside.

The passengers were looking at me. I sat at the last one and leaned against the window looking out into the void. I travel alone, away from him.

I met Steven at a party my boss attended. Because I am the secretary of the CEO who also owns the company. I worked in a company that produces expensive and branded shoes. They export it to different parts of the world.

I remembered how my heart beat so loudly the first time I met him. He was wearing a black tuxedo and his curly hair was being displayed.

He was very handsome and tall. He is one of those young businessmen who are attractive because of his good looks. I could hardly take my eyes off of him then.

That was the first time I liked a man. But I knew that it was impossible to notice me because of our worlds apart so I tried to suppress my feelings.

But I guess it was fate that brought us together when I was with him in the elevator of the building where I work. I thought I would never see him again, but I was satisfied when I saw him every day in the building, waiting for my boss.

I'm content to see him and I don't want anything else